So, this is gonna be part of a reoccurring topics where I romanticize absolutely everything. So take a second and watch me build off this idea. All in one post.
The D.L.
The down low. Or to put it in laymen's a private relationship. Almost my dream as a high schooler. Now there's different levels I could breakdown. But don't fret. We'll get to that.
How I deem private, a good term would be low-key. For starters I'd want a mutual understanding. An agreement of some sorts.That we both want our privacy. Or limited knowledge of our relationship. I see this as the best friends stage of a relationship. Yes you are dating, but everyone doesn't need to know.To be honest for however long I can I would like everyone to see us as just extremely close friends. Picture it we introduce our relationship. Still not that much posts. Or anything too romantic looking. But if anything almost hanging out or just talking at school. If anything that would induce speculation. Gosh I love that. The guessing games. The denial. Hiding in plane sight. That's very cool to me. People would think they're getting insight by asking you questions close or not. Would be shut out or ultimately fooled.
Next, this one is controversial but very effective I'd say. You probably guessed it. The completely private relationship. The secret agents, yet they could be having the deepest connection. I think people would disagree but to me it's riveting. I like the no expectations from any outsiders. It would feel like protecting my heart from mass judgement. Or crude comments like "they're an ugly couple." That one especially hurts. Don't get me wrong I'm the first to say love out loud. But guarding your relationship can be easier and more appealing too. I would enjoy not broadcasting it and having a little place or safe place from the world. Again, normal couple things like dates and hangouts even pictures. But it would probably be best out of social media. And very few knowledge. In addition to those thoughts, I would want him not to tell anybody the personal things we would share. The rumors around about couples are truly disheartening. Ultimately deterring me from the want to upload or boast. I like the not feeling the need to brag and being able to keep the little things to myself. Not being associated with a relationship is nice. I am Leila. I wouldn't be someones other half or gf. Just me. Those labels aren't bad but when a persons image is consumed and their image is consumed by a relationship is bad. The excitement goes up every time you see each other. Because you're a constant thought in each others mind but not a constant conversation topic. The build up. Each time. The sneak around. Turned off snap maps. How much better could it get?
Ultimately, it would go public. It must. But, that'll come with time,growth, and understanding. Still stick to my habits. Minimal posting and no gossip! This world is so tainted. Beautiful innocent love or kids can be torn down and vilified in seconds. And that's normal? What could be a passing time conversation for you could be a wound for someone else. And as I write this I vow to work on that as you should too. It's not on purpose that we mutter grotesque generalizations. But lets begin to call ourselves out. I think this has taken a turn to digging at my own insecurity and struggle with people's perception. I mean we can't act like words don't hurt. That jealousy or malicious jabs can alter a relationship in a snap.
Converse that energy. Keep it in that bubble for as long as you can.
-L.J.J
P.S. I wouldn't have all my relationships private but I thought I'd say my take on it. And lastly did anyone else watch Boy Meets World. TGIF
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