Sunday, January 24, 2021

Can't force the feeling

     In this life there is literally so much you can do to better yourself. Take me for example, this year I've done so much. BLESSED. But seriously i study very hard for cma tests, I work hard at the restaurant, I'm trying to build merit from being the vp of class and the secretary of student government. And so much more like buying my whole family gifts. Now, why is this important? I've had experiences with love. But as of now I don't have a growing receptive love. I don't have the I love you back. 

This brings me into our topic. Love cannot be acquired. Love cannot be bought. In true definition of work, organic love cannot be worked for. Worked on but not worked for. I think about it and you have to grind. You must get up early. You have to work that muscle, get that summer body. With enough determination you can do it. But, when it comes to the worlds best feeling in the world. What I perceive as gods greatest gift: There is no blueprint. LOVE has no blueprint. As painful as that sounds, its the cold hard truth. There is no map that will find you your honey, get him to feel for you back. And its crazy. That has to be the worlds greatest chase. We suppress ourselves, and we pretend we do not care. Don't act like I'm crazy. Please listen. I'd like to cite a quote from famous rapper J.Cole, he once said: 

"money can't buy you love because its overpriced," Now I wouldn't say its overpriced but truly is a battle and not for the weak. Nothing any form of compensation can buy. I truly get upset thinking of some of the greatest, most accomplished people are lonely. They have yet to find it but they will, everyone will. It just will always mind boggle that some of the worst people still have love and us good ones feel lost. The freaking joker got Harley Quinn and we all know couples like that... makes me wonder. I know everything happens for a reason but when it comes to "getting" love. Is it random? Is there a birth order? Is there such a thing as worthiness? We don't know, We may never know, but I'll admit its better that way.

So now I open up the question to my peers/readers. How do you believe love (real life love!) is gained? 


P.S. I hope you enjoyed and I look forward to talking about some of my experiences. And I'm gonna make a post about how I actually view love and like soulmates the whole nine yards. I actually am in a super good mood, and I'm  hoping this provoked your thoughts NOT made you sad. HA have a fine day

1 comment:

  1. thought provoking. i rlly enjoyed this comprehensible, riveting read Leila! im excited to hear more of your opinions on love

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