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By the title its safe for you to assume I am procrastinating. And you are right. It is cozy here though not
going to lie. I scroll on TikTok, I eat, plan, and talk to my family at times. What else? With this time I nap
and communicate with people. Its not at all perfect. But it takes a lot of less brain power than anything.
Similar to this post, sometimes school feels like a drag. As they say "pushing papers." But what am I really
learning. I sit there and input letters for my drivers assignment. Tired eyes and worn out fingers. OH wait
Boces has a binder check so I must rearrange my whole setup for a grade. In addition I'm drawing a template
on a book I've barely read. At what cost?
I keep the end goal in mind at all times. But I wonder how much time are we suppose to spend doing things
we want to do. Ventures we want to explore minus your grade book and requirements you think I should
meet. There are days I barely have time to munch on some bread. Sometimes I know they're doing this for
us yet others I wonder if like the rest of us they'll get their check of the week and be satisfied. While I'm
mentally exhausted after enduring it.
I like to do work I understand. I don't mind an ELA essay or a boces question and answer. But math. That is
what gets me. I swear I feel actual brain pain. From trying to compute numbers, letters, and everything in
between. It is so extremely stressful when 1 thing is holding you back. I've tried studying. I have tried
paying attention in class. I don't hate a lot of things. But without a doubt. I know i hate math. That is the
main thing I'm avoiding but I'll admit hiding from it won't solve it. Maybe I'll start it in 10 minutes... an hour
...one day. I recognize I am only hurting myself. But the place I go to even thinking about it. Is territory I
strive to avoid. If I can't do high school math. What will colleges think or my dad think? Makes me
seriously question if college is for me. And on that note I should also procrastinate that thought!
Now what do you do to occupy yourself? How was your night? Excuse my rudeness I forgot to ask. TTYL
-L.J.J.
Side note: after writing this mess. I am convinced that I will buy stamps and send some people I know
letters. I seriously dig the letter format. Satisfying. OK. Looking forward to it.
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